Do you know it pains me to see you so stressed?
We have chosen this path and it is not a mistake, it is for the better.
As long as we have each other, I am not afraid.
I am always here for you, will always be.
I will hold your hand and walk through all obstacles with you.
You are the best and the most outstanding in my eyes.
I will be your lover, friend and a listening ear.
Lets pursue our dream together.
And Happy Anniversary Dear!(:
I love you the owner of the white elephant!
You don't get to just leave and think it will be alright
one year down the road,
and i find that I blame you,
maybe I always have,
When we had the wake,
I cried because it was sad.
When we were at the crematorium,
I cried because of the finality of it.
One year down the road.
And I cry,
because you chose this
and we the living
have to clean up this huge big mess that you create
and it's not fair.
I wish I could look at her
and not blame her for what has happened
not look at him and think he could have done better
not look at all three of them
and wonder what the heck were all of you thinking
because their laden with guilt,
their self hate, the sadness.
it's heartbreaking
and yet.
I still can't help but blame them
you chose this selfish path
you broke so many hearts doing what you did
so you don't get to leave
and think everything is going to be better.
because everything is not better.
because every year,
at this same time
I will have to go for a memorial service
and I shouldn't have too.
You shouldn't have chosen that path.
it's not fair.
Acceptance
credits:
weheartitIt's been 2 and a half weeks doing the degree program,
and the biggest take away I have gotten so far at least,
is that acceptance is hard.
I mean do I look at people differently
because they act differently, look differently,
in short don't fit the mould I have created.
The answer is yes.
How scary,
it's been a roller-coaster ride,
of too much readings, feeling drained.
but today,
it's a bit worst I guess,
I don't know exactly yet.
but i think today is going to be a crying day.
