always and forever: March 2011

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Is it weird to have always been happy

most of the time and suddenly always be sad

to wonder if it's okay

it's normal to want to sometime okay almost all the time

want to die

want to just stop

and have no will to live

have no drive to live

then again if it were normal,

I wouldn't be writing here

where no one comes

just to air my thoughts would I

I would have talked to someone.

but i'm not,

so it can't be normal.

and i'm not so sure I care that much.

It's days like this that make me really irritated that I'm from this family.

You all don't know anything,

but you would willingly take another person's viewpoint.

seriously,

what the hell.

ALL YOU ALL KNOW HOW TO DO IS COMPLAIN

YOU DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO THE VARIOUS PEOPLE

CONTACT THE FREAKING VARIOUS PEOPLE

YOU JUST SEE WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE

WHAT I CANNOT DO

THAT'S CALLED SUPPORT

OH THE IRONY.