I haven't slept the whole night because well i'm at a sleepover.
and sleepovers normally do the exactly the opposite of their name.
you stay awake.
so here I am blogging at this time with no sleep,
so forgive me if this post is all over the place.
easter vigil was eventful,
in the sense that it was a really really good homily,
alot to think about,
in the sense of direction,
my actions in life
who i am as a person.
will continue when i have my notes and brains with me
I guess it came as a revelation that I really need.
How I have let myself take control of everything.
And forgotten to put god as my center.
How in the midst of wanting to be in the center,
in the midst of wanting and craving love,
I lost sight of who I am,
Who God wants me tobe.
Does it feel like everything is spiralling out of control.
very much yes.
and i'm tired of trying to take control and make everything work my way.
Nineteen years ago, your mother carried you in her womb,
if she had gone to a doctor and told him,
I don't want this baby,
you would not be in this room having confession.
That in itself is an act of love.
something that the priest told me yesterday,
and it stunned me,
for one reason.
My coming into this world was due to an act of love.
But how do I treat others in this world?
after being given such a gift,
do I give back to the world the same love that I was given?
it will be something difficult I admit,
but it's something that i would like to be able to achieve.
