always and forever

For some weird reason,
i've been overwhelmed by this
feeling of loss,
for some time now.
and i can't help but wonder if i
made the right choices,
and whether i would still
have this undertow of loss
if i had chosen differently.



moving on.
I stole this from sammie shing. it's really sweet.


A girl quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick up.

"Becky, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t.
I love him so much and I don’t think he thinks of me that way.
I mean, whenever I see him or think of him, I can’t help it, this smile comes across my face.
Sometimes he sees me smiling and smiles back.
That’s when my knees turn to jello and I get butterflies in my stomach.
I know you think that he’s is so totally adorable and cute,
but if you look past that and actually listen to what he has to say, you find a totally different person. He’s so caring and considerate and he makes me feel like I don’t deserve him.
Well, actually, I don’t deserve him.
He’s too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls that fall over for him.
I could never be one of those.
Their all so pretty and bubbly and….. not me.
I couldn’t even start to compare myself to them.
But whenever I think of him or see him, I can’t help it, I smile.

Now I didn’t tell you this but he called me the other day about homework.
I tell you now, I made a complete fool of myself.
I’m so embarrassed.
I stuttered the whole time, but he was so sweet and just kept talking and making me feel better. He’s so perfect Becky, I don’t deserve him, so why do I keep wishing and praying that he will notice me, why?............Becky? Becky are you there?"

"This isn’t Becky.” Petrified the girl asks, "Then who is this?"

"This is the guy who’s smile turns your knees to jello and I just wanted to say one thing. Everything you just said now, I’ve been wanting to say since the day I met you"



Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ...
before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
Our song, Taylor swift

posted by val @ 9:11 PM