always and forever

valerie has been really silly about something
so she's decided to be smart now.
and stop doing this to herself.
yes? yes!

today,
i watched a friend
have her heart ripped into tiny pieces
and i just thought to myself.
how can she put herself through this
after all,
you can give your heart
to someone.
but there's no guarantee
nothing that that person
is going to keep it well.
and not just rip it apart.
really there isn't.
so why,
why take that risk.
and if the person does rip it apart.
how the hell do you
recover from a hurt so deep.
a pain that just never seems to end.


dear god,
just this one time.
let's listen to me okay?
i don't want that.
please don't give me someone to fall in love with
i bet there are hundreds of girls/boys out there
who are craving for that.
but valerie?
she's happy just the way she is.
no falling in love lord.
i don't think i'll live through that kind of pain.


anyway.
i came to a conclusion tonight.
superhero,
valerie does not need you anymore.
she knows she's going to fall, get hurt.
cry and cry and cry like nobody's business.
but, she's going to stand on her own now.
not need you to be there anymore,
to help clear up the messes she makes.
because.
here truthfully and quite honestly.
i'm quite angry with you.
irritated. pissed off.
but more then ever.
its about valerie
learning that you just can't depend on people.
because somewhere along the line
they fail.
so goodnight.
and goodbye superhero.
your not my hero anymore.
you don't have to be super anymore.

posted by val @ 10:29 AM