always and forever: It's the new year.

Friday, December 31, 2010

a new year is coming.

I just don't feel so much like welcoming it.

It's not, okay I don't know why.

Maybe it's school and the expectations.

Maybe it's choir and how I just don't know how

to live with myself as a leader.

And maybe it's just me, feeling defeated by me.

I can't find strength within me.

I feel so unaccomplished.

apprehensive about what to do.

And yes, I can blame people,

but at the end of the day.

It's me that can't live with me.

So it's the new year,

I face it with much fear,

anticipation.

But mostly, hope.

to be a better person.